So much has had happened in the past year that all I want to do is to create another new year’s resolution without looking back at the ones that I haven’t done at all except of course, I know that I have been eating a lot. I love my comfort snacks, more on the savoury side. For example I am munching one of my favs ‘Old El Paso’ original nachos which I bought from Tescos while I am writing this. I don’t have to sit down in a Mexican restaurant to eat a good one. I have a knack at creating my own topping and I tell you if you seldom drink coke, this is the best combination snack apart from pizza.
My own interpretation of a new year’s resolution is a short one; it is simply a new promise to oneself to become a happier or a better person. Literally simple I must admit but why have I not done it. Is it because when I make a new year’s resolution; I knew I made a promise to myself so if I break this promise no one would know. Whatever I have promised to myself there is no pressure of embarrassment if I fail to do it. I can justify to myself it’s alright I’ll do it next year, there is plenty of time. Or it’s alright that person will never know that I had to be nice to her, or it’s alright my boss does not expect me to do more than what I am doing already, or it’s alright to postpone my dream holiday because the money had helped my love one or went to a good cause, etc. Anyway this is only for me and my self satisfaction.
Exactly the point I want to make, I keep going and doing other things except for the things that I really want to do thinking that there will be another new year next year.
Since I was young I have pictured myself dining and wining in one of the romantic restaurants in Venice with the love of my life. My figure was just right and I was wearing a simple, sleeveless, long flowing lacy dress feeling pretty and ecstatic. Totally, simple and absurd to others but I would like to do that to satisfy my feminine world. I am not adventurous or a traveller by nature. Let us just say that I prefer using my own bathroom or toilet than Hilton’s for example but in Venice I wouldn’t mind.
Over my mature years - years that I have started to what you call earn a decent income; I have never exceeded spending more than what is basic or to lavish myself.
My partner’s question every year is, are we going to Venice this year and my usual answer is, "Let me think about it". "Well in fact we don’t have to go out of the country to enjoy and it’s so hard to pack, I have to bring a number of shoes for a number of dresses, I have not achieved my ideal weight yet and the number of mishaps in the news of travelling frightens me, etc.".
How much time and money will it take me to fulfil that childhood romance in my mind, not so much but it never happens because very quickly when the subject comes up my rational head will remind me that there are more productive things that I could do with that money and with that time.
Right at our fingertips there are so many ways to fulfil our new year’s resolution especially the ones that we would like to do for ourselves. Would you agree? Well if you do, do it then and have a new one next year. Don’t pile them up like me.
Here’s my new year’s resolution. No more excuses and get that right figure for that long flowing lacy dress. Johnny Depp here I come, oh my, please excuse me, I am dreaming. Have you watched that movie, “The Tourist”. You better do. To our new year's resolution...Cheers!
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